I’m not really a fan of writing when I don’t feel great.

Which, if my brain had its way, would be every day I don’t feel great would be a zero writing day. It’s a harsh mistress, writing is, and she can be pretty wild to deal with.

That said though, sometimes I do okay. I’ve had to teach myself to write consistently, every day, to avoid the dreaded writers block. It is like working a muscle in some ways. The growth is when you come to the hardest parts. And writing what I do tends to have its share of hard parts. I have three main reasons why I stumble across hard parts for writing:

There’s rejection. Always horrible but character building.

There’s medical issues. Always annoying.

There’s the incapability to write what you want to express.

Say what? Yeah, that’s a thing. I have one story I am working on for a Wonderland-esque setting that I know is going to take me a long time to write, solely because I’m not the writer I need to be to write it properly. I lack the true experience in the world to take it to the level it needs to be at.

I love Wonderland. I have ever since I was a kid. Anyone and everyone who ever gets to know me knows that Wonderland is going to happen sometime in my life. But the problem is the story I started working on feels like it is out side my experience. It feels like something beyond me to express what I need to express.

The hardest part for me is acknowledging that I am too weak a writer to attempt this story yet. I need to get better to do it justice.

So I keep training. Even when I don’t feel like writing, I keep going and I write something, whether it is for the Unseen or some other world I am building. Because one day I’m going to be ready to write that Wonderland story and it is going to take all of my long hours learning the craft to do it well

Stacie Hanson